Friday, March 5, 2010

what if... not?

It's not so much a question of what-if-i-did than what-if-i-didn't. Obviously I already did, and got all my answers... and more. So, what if I didn't? What were the possibilities? the could bes? the could've beens? Much more, between these two, what would've been the better alternative? If I didn't... would I have been better off? What would I have lost and gained? Could what I would've lost and gained be less traumatic?

And so... to reach full recovery, I need to face the answers... of what I did, and the imaginable answers of what I didn't... not berate myself, and live with it.

2 comments:

Unknown said...

ahahah. i think only you understood this.

un-heel-ed said...

@jenny... cryptic-ism... i love it. but i think you know some of it too... hehe